Wednesday, May 31, 2000

Just to make we're all on the same page: I don't defend the AFA in any way shape or form. As far as I'm concerned they're all a bunch of bigoted idiots who have nothing better to do than persecute, stereotype and harass other people in the name of "family values."



Which, in my opinion is a load of hogwash and filth and an awful way to spend one's time. That they are trying to use gays as a scapegoat for other's lower income is ridiculous and disgusting. It's comparable to a certain other bit of persecution that took place earlier this century. A friend of mine linked me to the AFA myths page a few years ago. It was hurtful and disgusting and made me physically ill. Literally.



I giggle about it all now... we have to laugh to keep ourselves from crying sometimes. So that's what I do. I also eat lemon sorbet -- a cool, tasty and refreshing treat.
So, the information the AFA hands out is really a reliable source. Hmmm.



I'm not saying my article is infallible, in fact I'm sure the figures will change after this year's census because more people will indentify as gay, but I think if you have a group of people who says they are in every town, in every profession, in every country, then it makes little sense to me that they are concentrated in high-paying jobs. Also, people from the Human Rights Campaign and the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force saying something holds more credibility to me than the AFA (although everyone has an agenda)
Oddly, the American Family Association seems to disagree with the whole gays earning less than heterosexuals thing. If you take a peek at page 12 of their clever little Homosexuality in America: Exposing the Myths pamphlet, the average income of homosexuals is quite a bit more than everyone else, and 66% take overseas vacations! Imagine that. Also, in case you're wondering, Myth #9 is: "Homosexuals are normal, healthy, everyday people."



Now, go play Gay or Eurotrash courtesy of Blair Magazine.

I don't know how to describe today's move. I've done it so many teams over the past few years that it doesn't seem like a big deal, and this is one was very seamless. I left work early, packed all afternoon, made a few trips to the new place, Earl and Sean came downt to help me move big things, and now I'm done. Easy. I unpacked and arranged my room, which is cute cute cute. And I'm just psyched in general about this place. It's rather dirty now, but in three weeks we will have beautified it. It's a quiet street, 30 seconds from the park, literally 500 feet from the student center and Targum (whereas the old apartment was almost a mile away). It's is perfections! And as corny as this sounds, I really feel like this is the beginning of what will turnout to be a kick-ass year. Hopefully I've found two new good friends in Jeremy and Stan, I'll get to know Cathleen even better, and I'm, geographically, I'm in the middle of everything.



Woo ha. Work it and own it.



(Also, Ben Jenkins, is now posting. He used to be a college student like me, but he was too stupid to cut it at the University of Michigan so he devotes his time to laying in bed, snuggled with his laptop, and sitting in a basement pretending to work. Isn't he super cool?!)
It's a recent study based on pretty old stats, but I think it's interesting (and was obviously interesting enough for us to write about it):



Gays Earn Less Than Heterosexuals



By T.J. DEGROAT

©2000 My Internship

May 31, 2000



Men with unmarried partners of the same sex are better educated, but earn less money than their heterosexual counterparts, according to a study in this month’s issue of Demography, the journal of the Population Association of America.



Women with same-sex partners also are better educated, on average, but earn similar salaries to heterosexual women of the same age, the study found.



"An important point that is clearly articulated is that it illustrates the impact of anti-gay discrimination on income levels," David Smith, spokesperson for the Human Rights Campaign, the largest national gay and lesbian political organization, told the Associated Press.



The report examined statistics from the 1990 U.S. Census, the first to allow people to identify that they live with same-sex partners. Additional statistics from 1992’s National Health and Social Life Survey and the annual General Social Survey were used.



Of men between 25 and 34 living with a male partner, 29 percent had graduated from college and 13 percent from graduate school. Only 13 percent of men with female partners had a college degree and 4 percent had a graduate degree.



The heterosexual men with college degrees earned an average of $29,162 a year compared with $28,618 for gay men. Heterosexual men with graduate degrees earned nearly $4,000 more than gay men, $36,072 to $32,465.



Thirty-two percent of men aged 35-44 with same-sex partners graduated from college, with 24 percent obtaining graduate degrees, but the numbers were just 13 percent and 7 percent, respectively, for males with a female partner.



The pay discrepancy continued, with men with same-sex partners and college degrees making $36,054 per year, compared with $38,629 for men with female partners.



Although the statistics are based on 10-year-old Census reports, some people in the gay community are heralding this study as proof that discrimination in the workplace remains a problem.



"I think the study bears out what we’ve been trying to say for years. The myth that gays, lesbians and bisexuals are somehow more affluent than other is just that, a myth," said David Elliot, communications director at the Washington, D.C.-based National Gay and Lesbian Task Force. "We hope it will show the reality of our lives."





Elliot was not concerned that the bulk of the study comes from old statistics, but said he will look for reports based on this year’s census survey.



The study shows that women do not face the same inequality in pay as men, though. Women aged 35-44 with college degrees and with a same-sex partner had mean earnings of $28,387, while those with a male partner earned $28,734. Heterosexual women with graduate degrees earned $34,295 annually and those with male partners earned $34,427.



"That came as a bit of a surprise to me, but it might show that as a group, lesbians have been able to achieve more," Elliot said.



Some say the larger number of lesbians with children could contribute to the higher salaries. Twenty-two percent of lesbian couples have children compared to just 5 percent of gay couples, which could place more pressure on women to find high-paying jobs.



Elliot said that could be the case. "It could be a factor, but I wouldn’t rest the whole thing on that," he said.

I got this email from some woman responding to my Latinos in Hollywoog article, who had a really insightful comment: "DUH? Is there anyone that Hollywood does not sterotype?"

Apple never really targeting the Spanish-speaking market, this is a great idea.
Good Morning everyone, and Happy Early Iced Tea Month!

"Tea is a smart choice ... the perfect brew for today's healthy

lifestyle," advises Joe Simrany, President of the Tea Council of the USA. "We

hope that Americans will embrace iced tea during National Iced Tea Month this

June, and then continue enjoying both its refreshing flavor and its impressive

health benefits 12 months a year."



I just can't believe there's a national Tea Council.

Tuesday, May 30, 2000

Do you ever listen to a song and become almost orgasmic when the singer hits a certan note or one chord is played or when there's a really cool sequence. It can be anything. It happens to me every once in a while. A part of a song will just kill me and I need to simply stop whatever I'm doing and take it in. I love music.
Um, ok, I love it that the nation that single-handedly supported socialism/dictatorships in Latin America is now making such a fuss about Fujimori's win in the Peruvian elections. Granted, the man probably did act fraudulantly and the voting system is corrupt, but it's just lame that *now* we're making a big deal. There's way more we need to be doing in Latin America to rid the continent of injustice and inequality.
Good afternoon all of you beautiful web surfers. How are you? Lovely!



I am at work. I did not move this weekend. Stupid people take too long. I am moving tomorrow. Therefore, I will have to take half days off from work tomorrow and Thursday. This is not good. Bell Atlantic is coming Friday. That is not good. I can¡¦t be there so instead of them wiring lines to specific jacks, the numbers will pop into random jacks, meaning I probably won¡¦t have the same phone number.



Other than that, I am super! I finished a good story today that I might post, but it¡¦s super long. Ah, who am I kidding, I¡¦ll post it. ƒº

Hello Ben, did you shake your groove thing yesterday?

Sunday, May 28, 2000

It was such a gorgeous night. The sky was cloudy, that soft, misty cloud that adds a tint to the usual black. The breeze was cool and I welcomed it as I walked across Easton and Hamilton to my apartment. There were a lot of college kids roaming, especially for the middle of the night on a summer Sunday, but the vibe was totally friendly.



I don't know what I'm trying to say. Yes, I do, but I can't say it. Tonight at Jes' I realized that being enigmatic and secretive is much more fun, and just a much better idea sometimes...

Saturday, May 27, 2000

Oh my mother fucking god. Guess who is opening for Britney when I see her in July? BB fucking Mak!



That almost makes up for the fact that I'm at Targum, trying to put the first summer issue online, but it is not saved ANYWHERE.
OK, scroll down to see before shot, now here is the after (It's too light, I think...but should I dye it golden like it was or dark blonde?)







It's funny that I have to move to my new apartment sometimes this weekend and I have to do some things at Targum, as well, but my hair is getting this much of my attention.



This is my hair day.



I got my hair cut by a girl who kept telling me about her "psycho best friend" who she thinks is going to key her car or firebomb their shorehouse at some point today. Personailty aside, she did a good job, but my hair is the shortest it's EVER been. And, it's half brown/half blonde, which isn't going to become a big trend, so I have to do something about it. I went back and forth between dying it brown and blonde and finally settled on blonde...it's too early in the summer to have dark hair again. So I bought a lightening kit and I'm disregarding all of the instructions and doing it how I please. Ha! Here's what I look like after the haircut, before dying it:



Friday, May 26, 2000

So, Sandy has this one-page mini calendar of naked men, and she told Steph it was scratch n sniff. Steph is looking at one guy, who had a weird-looking butt, and she scratches it and brings it up to her nose! She scratched a guy's ass and sniffed! It was all a joke, of course, and we have been mercilessly making fun of her for an hour.



We’re also all buzzed after cake and beer in the conference room. How cool are we?

Like we didn't already know this happens all the time?



By T.J. DEGROAT

©2000 My Internship

May 26, 2000



The Hispanic community remains a large, untapped market within the entertainment industry as both a consumer group and a talent pool, according to a study released Wednesday by the Screen Actors Guild (SAG).



The few roles available to Hispanic actors are mostly as criminals or domestic servants, according to the 1,200 Latino SAG members who responded to the study, conducted last year by the Claremont, Calif.-based Tomás Rivera Policy Institute (TRPI).



About two-thirds of the respondents of "Still Missing: Latinos In and Out of Hollywood" said they "had been rejected for a role because they did not fit a Latino stereotype."



About 70 percent of those surveyed said casting directors perpetuate stereotypes, 61 percent said writers held stereotypes, 59 percent reported producers did, and 54 percent said directors did as well.



"Twenty five years ago I started out in Chicago and I was being forced to audition for street thugs and gang leaders. It’s frustrating that things haven’t changed that much." said Ray Bradford, director of equal employment opportunities for the American Federation of Television and Radio Artists, an organization that represents actors and other professional performers and broadcasters in TV, radio and new media.



The lack of diversity in the entertainment field has become a volatile issue in recent years, with African-American leaders calling the 1998’s network television schedules a black out.



Historically, Hispanics have been the most underrepresented of all the minority groups in Hollywood. Latinos, who make up 11.5 percent of the population, according to the latest Census reports, are cast in only 3.5 percent of all SAG film and TV jobs.



"There is definitely a problem, that’s a given. We have many Latino members across the United States who are not being employed," Bradford said.



The lack of Latinos on the small and big screens also creates image problems. "With increased employment, viewers will be able to see themselves and when you don’t, there’s a disconnection," Bradford said.



There is a need for diversity education among top executives, some say. Many in the industry don’t realize Hispanics spend $500 million on films each year.



"From the responses, Hollywood executives continue to assume that Latino-themed projects and roles do not play well," said TRPI President Dr. Harry P. Pachon. "This study reveals that the lack of understanding of this audience are profound and broad-based."



In 1998, Latinos spent $73.27 per family per year on admissions to movies, theater, opera and ballet, compared with $49.19 per family for African Americans and $97.36 for non-Hispanic whites, according to the report.



"It just doesn’t make business sense to not tap into that market," Bradford said. "To tap into it, you have to employ Hispanics."



One film director interviewed said the reason there are so few Hispanic-themed movies is that previous films have not been financially successful.



"Economic power in Hollywood is critical. That’s the way things change in Hollywood," the director said.



But Bradford said minorities would support films to which they can relate, if they are given the chance. "We just hope the industry doesn’t wait another 20 years to start employing the entire spectrum of Americans," he said.









The plan is to get out of here as early as possible. But the weird thing is, I'm having so much fun today. My plan to boost the level of happiness is working, I've been really social, and my story is rockin'. I'm just typing away, listening to my new CDs, and having so much fun. It's odd, but here's something even weirder: A girl and some glue.

Thursday, May 25, 2000

Pardon my "this is how my day went" moment, but I had such a super day.



I had a marathon news meeting where I actually learned quite a bit about our company's marketing side, worked on a press release rewrite and did research fot a story until lunch, which was free to celebrate Sandy's departure. Lunch was two hours long, bi-atch! Then I came back and worked on my main story: a study by the Screen Actors Guild that shows Latinos are consistently stereotyped in Hollywood and that the entertainment industry is missing out by not targeting Latinos as a substantial consumer group. Four people called me back at the same time, someone from SAG, someone from AFTRA (a SAG - like org), someone from a Latino Arts Council and someone from HOLA actually sent me a list of Latino actors and their numbers so I could get quotes from them! Kick-ass.



So, super day at work...then Hara came over and we kicked it (you know...me) before heading to Tunes for some CD shopping. Um, why haven't I ever been to this place before??? Conveniently located on Church Street in downtown New Brunswick, Tunes offers kick-ass, dirt-cheap prices on new and used CDs. So, I bought BBMak, which is really suprisingly good, the whole CD, Elliott Smith's new one, and my first Sleater-Kinney CD. I haven't listened to the last two yet...



Anyway, after CDs was dinner at Harvest Moon with most of the "young" co-workers. That was fun times. But Mr. Under-21 had to skip out on the real celebrating...



So, I am feeling very emotional right now but I'm not about to go there...



Goodnight you beautiful internet people.
More tales! I actually thought the mini-series was kind of lame compared to the book, but I'm excited for a new installment nevertheless.
I am writing super cool stories today and to top it all off, we are all going out to lunch again (on the boss) for Sandy’s last day. Woo ha.
Daily Z100 moment, a conversation between two DJs:



Elvis: Scary, why are you ringing that bell?

Scary: It’s a special Bell!

Elvis: Why?

Scary: It’s a sunshine bell. The more you ring it, the stronger the sun will shine on your faces!



Is that not the cutest thing ever?



Actually, this is cuter: Stephanie’s (someone I work with) boyfriend is a DJ on a morning radio show on a competing station, and she gets to wake up to his voice and listen to him while she drives to work each morning. Cute!

Wednesday, May 24, 2000

Every time Luke, the CEO, walks past me he says, “Dot com!” It’s getting old already.



Oh, and just this second, I hear Foulis, the other partner, say to someone, “Did you hear about TJ?”



Ah!

Oh my lord. Wow.



I rewrote a press release yesterday about NeoPlanet creating a web browser that will donate a dollar for every download to an HIV/AIDS organization. The link to find out more info should have gone to projectinform.org, but instead it went to projectinform.com. So bad. So bad.
Our former business manager was an imbecile, it seems, but the new one is wonderful. I'm getting paid for 88 hours on the 31st. Woo hoo. Should I save my money are blow it on something ridiculously unnecessary? You decide!
Oops...she did it again. Britney is second only to 'N Sync. I'm really proud of her, and I know how demented that sounds. I wonder how many people nod their heads shamefully when they visit my site and read this gross Britney content...
Oh lord. Someone I work with just came over to me and said, “do something, please,” and proceeded to push my back in. “Your shoulders will start to round out!” he said. Oy vey.
I'm not a huge fan, but the Smashing Pumpkins are breaking up!
As a member of the media I just don't understand why Elia moving to a new house warrants an article in the Washington Post, let along in their "Top News" section. Well, maybe I understand, but I don't agree.
Z100 provides me with endless entertainment. Today, as I’m driving to work, I hear a commercial for an eye surgeon in New York City. Part of it was: “Studies have shown the results of your surgery directly reflect the quality of your surgeon.” Duh duh duh duh duh.

Tuesday, May 23, 2000

Hello all of you cute, fuzzy, snuggle bears. There is a new journal entry just for you!
At my internship Hara and I created a column called "Promoting Diversity" the features little blurbs about diverse executives in corporate America. Until I began looking for people to profile, I never fully realized how WHITE and MALE the business world is. Blah.
Also, Jish is very creative. Submit your info to the Voicemail directory.
Juliana Hatfield not only contributed to the kick-ass Reality Bites soundtrack, but was a guest star on My So-Called Life, as well. That combo makes her a (to use one of Justin's words) a rawkin' chick.
My town is one of the top 250 richest towns in the nation according to this magazine. Upper Saddle River is also on the list. That's kind of weird.
So, I have to interview an owner of a big Mercedes dealership tomorrow. He's one of few minority owners and it's sort of a rags to riches, projects to suburbia story. I'm spending a lot of time just reading up on him and coming up with questions. Boring.
OK, of all of the SNL sketched Mike Meyers has been a part of, Dieter seems like it would be the hardest to stretch into 90 minutes. It's so bizarre and offputting to me, but I think Meyers can do anything, he's quite the comedic genius IMO.
OPEC has got to go!
The study concludes that whiplash patients heal more quickly under a no-fault insurance system -- which is mostly lawyer-free -- than under one permitting crash victims to sue. Duh squared.



I was listening to the Morning Zoo on Z100 and one of the DJs brought up colors of underwear. Do you think manufactrers make brown underwear? That would be very confusing.

Monday, May 22, 2000

So, Philip is listening to old school Alanis and Tori and I’m think about Kris and wondering if he’s alive.



No cubicle today. Next week. Issues.



Too much in my head.



“Enough about me, let’s tak about you for a minute?”

Sunday, May 21, 2000

I don't remember where I've seen this, I probably posted it in a journal entry or something, but I absolutely adore this poem:



"Keeping Things Whole"



In a f ield

I am the absence

of field.

This is

always the case.

Wherever I am

I am what is missing.



When I walk

I part the air

and always

the air moves in

to fill the spaces

where my body's been.



We all have reasons

for moving.

I move

to keep things whole.



--Mark Strand





Oh wow. BB Mak's song "Back Here" will be this year's summer song. It's infectious. Pop music from a band of three who all sing and play their own instruments. Acoustic guitar driven, which I love, and amazing English accents (the great northern, Scottish-sounding accent) to boot. They're like a Natalie Imbruglia/Savage Garden combo, but better, I think. Go listen to a live version of "Back Here" at Sonicnet. I also love "I'm not in love." It starts out sounding lame but the chorus has a great harmony. I will definitely have to hit Sam Goody this week. (Oh, and they're opening for Britney, but not in my area, I don't think.) The biggest plus for them is I can sing the songs ... the middle voice is right within my range. [i wanna be a rock star oh my god anyone wanna start a band with me]
I fell asleep at 10:30 last night. When I woke up and listened to my messages I heard Jes say, "It's Saturday at midnight, I guess you have a life, so you're out." So untrue :) I'm very much in my summertime-antisocial-self-imposed exile state of mind.



Oh, can I just mention that Monica Seles won the Italian Open. Oh, yeah, love to love her baby. It's much easier to be someone's fan when they aren't sucking it up. She defeated Amelie Mauresmo, a really hard-hitting player, in the final. That's cool because Seles needs to start dominating the big hitters like the Williams sisters again. Seles also defeated Dokic, who took out Venus Williams, so that's a solid win. She should be #3 in the rankings next week. Bring on the next grand slam.

Saturday, May 20, 2000

Oh, I spoke to my mom and she said Meg, one of Frieda's friends who was at the wedding, who is like 31 with two kids but a total wild girl with a lot of sass anyway, said I was "hot." Hahahahaha. What kind of crack was she smoking?!
Cleaning: I updated the contact page and the CD list (to prove I'm not a total cheeseball Britney Spears fanatic...I am eclectic, people!), changed the pictures on the side bar, added all of the Vermont pictures you can find at Zing to the cam directory and ...



... My Talk (with the uber-cool interactive operator) is fading into the great web abyss, so I now have a new voicemail number:



877.378.6060 x 832



Call me, and if you leave a return number I'll sing to you or recite poetry from Juana Ibarbourou :)
I haven't had car troubles in a while. I hadn't, until today, when I couldn't start the Probe and realized I must have left the lights on last night. Fortunately none of my roommates or friends are around this weekend to jump my car or take me to buy a new battery! ... So the mother will be coming down tomorrow. I'll get a free meal out of it, too, so it's not all bad.



Monica, could you just do me this favor and win tomorrow in Rome? It would make me so happy and restore some faith in your abilities from the tennis community...



Friday, May 19, 2000

Wow. This changes everything. with Rudy out it would seem like Hillary has an easier task, but the new candidate is known as a moderate Republican and won’t have as much baggage to deal with as Rudy or Hillary. Very interesting.
I just had my first office lunch. We all went out because someone is leaving. On the boss. Fun fun fun. Came back and someone who was supposed to interview is waiting outside our locked office door. Fun fun fun.
Here's a story about the new virus. It's a tricky little bugger. But the media is so on top of this stuff that corporate America shouldn't have as many problems as with the original Love Bug.
So, I come to work wearing the suit I wore at the wedding - I only wear jackets when it's cold, comfort over style, but every is complimenting me, everyone! You know what that means? I must look like shit in my normal clothes.
Another virus! Yay. It should have FW: in the subject and the extension should be .vbs / courtesy of Good Morning America.



Thursday, May 18, 2000

I went to lunch with Hara and had yum yum pizza and, for the first time, a Chocolate Brownie Frappaccino from Starbucks. Craziness.
After months they finallytake the flag down.
Lawyers Bid for Work Online. I find this kind of frightening. "It hasn't been the easiest thing in the world" to interest lawyers in putting themselves out to bid, says Johnson. No shit!

Wednesday, May 17, 2000

Pictures from the weekend!
Marcus comes up with pop culture references that kill me. "I'm so excited, I'm so excited, I'm so ... scared!" I swear, I got tears in my eyes when I saw that, when I was, like 11?
LATIN AMERICAN WOMAN 01 836 150 01 3 A

ADV SPAN LANG WORKSHOP 01 940 326 03 3 A

NEWS RPTG & WRITING 04 571 324 05 3 A

INTRO TO MUSIC I 07 700 101 01 3 C

THEATER APPRECIATION 07 965 211 01 3 B+



Degree Credits 61.0

Term Avg 3.500



A C in music is so grotesque. I'm actually lucky I pulled that, which is really sad. My lowest grades are from my easiest classes. Total slackage.





I'm doing a story on the GLAAD media awards and the thing that strikes me is that the organization is so desperate to reward any positive portrayal of Gays in the media that they'll nominate shows like UNDRESSED! I mean, it's a funny show and I watch it once in a while, but to nominate it as Best Dramatic TV Program is quite silly.
Elliott, two T's.



We just had a fire drill at the office. Very senior year.
Email at the office is down. Fun!
VH1 and SonicNet are broadcasting an Elliot Smith concert tonight at 10:30 ET.



"Smith, known for his haunting, delicate ballads, first emerged on a national scale when his song, 'Miss Misery' was included on the Good Will Hunting soundtrack. His live performances are known for their subtle air of intimacy and delicate artistry. Smith's latest album 'Figure 8,' continues to generate acclaim for its Beatle-esque melodies and sophisticated song-craft.

I think it's amusing that MCI Worldcom's website is wwwwcomcom.
Someone is leaving Friday and guess who's going to be taking over her cubicle area thing! Me! Oh yeah. Privacy, kind of, sort of. Did anyone ever see "I Like It Like That"? Lisette was so psyched when she got her own cubicle. I feel just like her.
In our news meeting Brian mentioned a story he had seen on the wire about XY magazine's dire need for increased revenue. He said, "They're popular, but they're going down." Words!
ALLERGIES!!! They are destroying everyone I know. Is it bad in your area? Z100 played a spoof of Faith Hill's "Breathe" this morning that was renamed "Can't Breathe." All about allergies. "I can feel the pollen floating in the air." Good stuff.
I don't know if it's the novelty of a first lady running for office, but I really want Hillary to win. As a former New Yorker I hold a bit of an interest in the state and I really think this woman would thrive in this position.
So now he's just Prince again. Did anyone other than the media actually give in to his previous requests? And can someone explain to me why his music is so revered?

Tuesday, May 16, 2000

Wow. Linda is so dumb. She was in the shower when I came home and heard noises from my room and seriously thought we were being robbed (she's paranoid after the X-mas incident), so she barracaded her door, climbed out of her window and peered through mine until she could confirm it was me. Hmmm. Explaining it to me was the longest conversation we've had in weeks!
Yo.



Back in New Brunswick. Back in the 9 to 5. Back for good (want you back).



Driving down the parkway, listening to Britney (which I bought at Tower without any embarassment, and slight annoyance because I didn't have enough cash to buy Elliot Smith's new CD as well), stopping in South Orange, getting nothing, unpacking my entire life, watching a dead TV show, thinking about the carnage of My So-Called Life, and, last but not least, dreaming of you.

Monday, May 15, 2000

OK. This is proof that I don't like all cheesy pop music that MTV throws my way. I've been watching the music channel to make up for the months I go without it at school...and A*Teens, who I know are opening for La Britney...who are they??? Their remake of Dancing Queen is a lame cover of a lame song. The singing sucks, and speaking of singing, the guys, like in ABBA, don't serve any purpose other than completing the two blondes and two brunettes balance. And the blonde girl is the only good-looking member of the band. Bad music, bad singing, average looking people...why does this band exist.



Britney on the other hand... I LOVE HER AND YOU DO TOO. Someone tell me how SNL was since I didn't get to watch it. I saw MTV News 1515's short clips of her in the Morning Latte scene. Classic. And I love how much rehearsal these specials are showing. Lip synching rumors RIP.



Eminem, who I think is pretty cool in general, has proven himself to be very lame in his pop music hatred. "My childhood wasn't that happy, it's so watered down." Well, just because you weren't smiling at 18 doesn't mean other people should be pissed off at the world and singing about hate as well. Bad karma Mr. Em.



Um, I also have become re-obsessed with Jude, Duncan Sheik and Dar Williams during the uber-long car rides to and from the Green Mountain State. I'm not a lost cause.



Sunday, May 14, 2000

Back from VERMONT, another country, I swear. I'll post a large journal entry tonight, but my million photos won't be up until Tuesday because I forgot my cable. I'm going to try to get them onto Earl's computer, though, and upload them from there. Also, I use telnet for email and it all disappeared a few weeks ago and I just found out why (when my laptop was fixed someone accidentally opened up Outlook and it all downloaded onto this computer) so I'll be getting back to some people shortly :)

Thursday, May 11, 2000

Hey...My mommy had my laptop's modem fixed, so I finally have consistent Internet access from Allendale...and I can take it to the wedding. She also bought me a new suit, but I'm having slight issues with it. It'll be okay, though. I'll take pictures and you can decide.
I sit at my high-quality computer at the office all day long and blast mp3s while using AIM when I'm at home. But there are so many people in low-income neighborhoods and countless charities that don't have any access at all. The Digital Divide is decreasing, but very slowly. Programs like this one are helping.



I just wrote this a few days ago for my internship, it's interesting:



While most corporations are racing to keep up with the perpetual changes of technology, many smaller community-outreach organizations are barely out of the starting block.



The Digital Divide may be decreasing, but still there is a desperate need for additional computers and education in non-profit organizations and in low-income communities, said Laurie Schoeman, who works at the Catholic Charities’ Office of the Homeless and Hungry.



“A lot of churches and community organizations don’t have the money to purchase top-of-the-line computers to allow them access to the Internet,” Schoeman said. “There’s a whole community of providers and advocates out there but if you can’t access them you’re isolated.”



Lack of education is a serious problem, Schoeman said. Many volunteers at small churches in New York City are older people who didn’t grow up with the Internet. Many younger members of the community are computer illiterate because their schools couldn’t offer adequate services, she said.



“It just seems to me that the technology revolution hasn’t hit everyone,” Schoeman said. “For every office that has 10 or 12 computers there are churches that have absolutely no access.”



Schoeman’s New York-based organization has taken steps to attract computer donations. She has contacted computer manufacturers and searched for computer recycling programs but hasn’t found much help, she said.



The group is looking for computers that have CD-Rom drives and can download at high speeds. The technology is used for government programs, such as food-stamp eligibility screening and to build small community hubs so people can develop computer skills, Schoeman said.



“This is basically an indication of what low-income communities lack. It’s part of a quilt of challenges,” she said.



To get in touch with Catholic Charities call 212.371.1000 or e-mail laurie.schoeman@archny.org.

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Also, you guys can download the Fundraising Bar that will pay a dollar an hour, like the other ad bars, but this money goes to charity.

Wednesday, May 10, 2000

I'm sitting in a computer lab in the student center waiting for the 7:15 meeting of next year's roommates. I don't like these places because everyone can see what you're doing. I lok at the screens next to mine, I'm sure everyone else does as well. So I will not go to this site because I'm a bit embarrassed. No shame, I say...but there is just a bit.



Also: I'm going to The Go-Go/B-52 concert with Jes this summer, I spoke to Linda for the first time, I went to the mall and bought $100 of crap, I need to buy a suit tomorrow night, someone else who used this computer recently blogs because the name popped right up when I started to type it in.



Hi friend...



Yesterday I was sweating in a T-shirt and shorts and today I am cold in pants and a long-sleeved shirt. Funny, it is.



I'm having feelings. Don't you hate that? In all seriousness, I'm having life thoughts...and damn Tim for having them too, and making me focus on my life even more.



I don't know...I have to go to the mall, to Structure. I need clothes for summer. And clothes for this wedding/event in Vermont.



That is all.

Tuesday, May 9, 2000

By Me. Don't steal. It's interesting, though that the stats are so low for the general public.



Most Americans believe a college degree is imperative to becoming successful, but higher education is more important to Hispanics and African Americans than to White Americans, according to a study released last week.



According to the survey results, based on more than 1,400 interviews of the general public and parents of high school students, 65 percent of Hispanic parents and 47 percent of African-American parents consider college the most important component of success. Only 33 percent of White parents and 35 percent of the general public agreed.



Overall, 77 percent of Americans think college is more important now than it was 10 years ago, the study shows. About 87 percent of Americans think college has become as important as a high school education used to be.



The numbers are not surprising to Edward Codina, executive director of information and policy analysis for the Hispanic Association of Colleges and Universities. “It reaffirms what we have known for years, that Hispanic parents value education. They are very pragmatic,” he said.



The findings conflict with the number of minority students enrolled in schools of higher education, though. In 1998 about 37 percent of Whites aged 18 to 24 were enrolled in higher education compared with 30 percent of African Americans and 20 percent of Hispanics, according to federal statistics.



Codina attributes the discrepancy to Hispanic parents’ inability to understand the educational system. “They don’t know how to help their children,” he said. “Sometimes they don’t understand simple things like taking the right courses in middle school.”



Many Hispanic parents lack the financial resources to send their children to college, Codina said. “Twenty years ago there were more grants and less loans,” he said. “Investing in youth was a national issue and now it’s become an individual responsibility. We need to reverse that shift.”



The study was made up of more than 1,000 phone interviews and additional focus groups. It was commissioned by the National Center for Public Policy and Higher Education in San Jose, Calif. and was conducted by New York’s Public Agenda, a nonprofit research group.

I was just interviewing a woman for a story and she was talking to me about the lack of computers in community service orgs and low-income neighborhoods in general. We were trading Web sites we'd found and she said, "There's this great site called responsiblityinc.com that just had an excellent story about computer recycling." I told her that was us and that I had written that story and she said we're one of only three sites she's found that offer information about that kind of stuff. She really appreciates the work we do, she said. Yay!

The lame part of journalism, and published writing in general, is that your work is constantly critiqued and edited. It makes you really happy when you write a flawless piece, but incredibly annoyed when you don’t. It’s particularly bad for me, because I get offended when people dare to criticize anything I write. It’s bad, I know. Not that I’ve written anything horrible at the internship, just some minor changes that are still made get on my nerves.
At work...scouring the news wires for potential stories. This seems like a cool idea...putting those crazy "get rich quick" schemes to use for non profits that really need the money.

Monday, May 8, 2000

Have you all seen Bent? Rent it now! Affecting. It's amazing when you watch of movie filled with so much terror and violence but the love story shines through much brighter than anything else.
Shakira!
This is just a normal 18-year-old kid. She is having fun doing what she loves to do, and I give props to anyone who has mastered the business world at such a young age. There's a lot going on in that mind. This excerpt is cute, but the rest of the story shows depth we don't often get to see.
Just a reminder: 1.888.387.7901 x 7860 It's all about the voicemail, baby.
I enjoy this site, aisle 9. Much good music. And forget about orange or gray or whatever is the "new" color. It's blue, it always has been and it always will be.
This totallyamuses me to no end. Either lengthen the head or keep the hair. :) Nothing but love, Tim.
My sophomore year of college is now officially over. I took my Music final this morning at 8 a.m., after about 2 hours total of preparation and 6 hours of sleep. It went about as well as can be expected... But now I'm just pyshced for the summer, despite the 40 hr. work weeks and and inevitable stress of moving, to a new apartment at school and to a new house at home. This will be my fucking summer!

Saturday, May 6, 2000

Let there be journal!
So many things!



First, there will be a new journal entry uploaded in literally three minutes.



I haven't spoken to Linda except to give her a theater ticket since my birthday (April 15). And I'm a better person because of it. (God, her children will be so royally fucked up)



I visited Melissa before the discus event at the Big East Track & Field Championships today...it's at Rutgers. I'm going to watch her kick ass in the Hammer throw tomorrow, her big event. She will go to the 2004 Olympics, people!



Barnes and Noble and Borders are my favorite summer hangouts.



It's just about time to start going to Neptun/Ocean Grove again, a 30-minutes drive to what has quickly become my favorite beach in New Jersey (Long Beach Island is still up there and the beauty of Newport, RI is breathtaking). How do you land-locked people survive?



There is so much beauty on the Internet, so much inspiration. I forget that sometimes. I bet you do, too.

Friday, May 5, 2000

So, now our server is down. Great. It's so weird to think how dependent we all are on technnology. Steph, Hara and I were just discussing the fact that we work for an internet company and if we can't get access to the net we are screwed. The world is screwed. There was a funny cartoon in the Times, I think, about actually having to use the phone and fax machines because of lack of email yesterday. Some of us have forgotten how...
I'm so smart!!!!



And lucky...it's funny how much luck plays a role in our lives. Oprah says there's no such thing, that it is opportunity meeting preparation, but today was lucky.



I heard on the radio that there were copy cat viri going around. So today, after the 9 a.m. news meeting I noticed Brad, another intern, had sent me a joke. I backed away and told him how sketchy it was that he would use joke as a subject when we had all heard about the joke virus. He didn't sen it, he said. It was sent out to everyone in his address book. Everyone heard my conversation with him and freaked. Unfortunately, a stupid sales rep. tried to open it but "it wouldn't let her." I hope that doesn't destroy everything.

Thursday, May 4, 2000

Lauren, Ben and I decided to go to IHOP for a little snack, after much deliberation. As we're driving down Easton Ave. we notice that IHOP has burned down. There are fire trucks and ambulances all over the parking lot. Hmmm...



I have to work tomorrow and I don't wanna!



I also have a journal entry in my head that I'll probably write at the internship I don't wanna go to tomorrow. Sleepy!

Wednesday, May 3, 2000

Oh, Christ. I didn't realize how many statistical studies I need to read for my papers. I just finished "The Development of Capitalism in Puerto Rico and the Incorporation of Women into the Labor Force" so I can write about the role of women in the work force and how they helped to shape the economy both in Puerto Rico and New York City during the first four decades of the 19th century. Fun, eh?
She is so cute! [From the upcoming Rolling Stone cover.]



This is me, writing papers. Fast fast fast!

Tuesday, May 2, 2000

Two things that make me happy:



Luke, the CEO, said I'm a good writer, and everyone has complimented me about my hair. And blue will not be a problem, they say.
My borderline obsession with Britney Spears has come out at the office. Some people thought it was funny, others sad. A debate over her credibility ensued. But the supportive environment of this workplace makes me feel extremely comfortable in my revelation. Now whenever Rosa or Kim walks past my desk they sing Britney lyrics. Brian has requested I buy him a shirt at the concert. He is serious.



It was intense, though. I actually started to sweat profusely while they were berating me! Hmmm….

“Why I Love America”

By T.J. DeGroat

Age 20



I love America because the natural hierarchies are super fun! In the corporate world, entry level is lame. But the longer you’re there and the better you are, you faster you are rewarded. Today, I moved from the intern1 log in name and email address to my very own name. I actually heard the Systems Analyst mention that she could just set up a forwarding name to intern1 for me since interns usually aren’t here long enough to warrant the work (what work?) it takes to set up the additional name. But lovely Barbara said, “No! Not for our TJ! He needs his own name!!!” Yay. Because, seriously, how silly is it to call up a representative from The Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation and ask them to send a press release to intern1@whatever.com.



The end.

An April 10, 2000 Forbes article reported that online pornographers made $1.5 billion in 1999. A March 2000 study revealed that 200,000 of the 2 million monthly Internet users spend at least 11 hours a week involved in online sexual activity.



Kind of surprising, but I think this lady is going a bit too far.
Things like this kind of freak me out. It's just like those Best of the 90s CD compilaitions. It's just so wrong.
I'm moving up in the intern world. I'm going to try to get a interview with George Curry, the first Black president of the American Society of Magazine Editors. This rules because it’s a big interview and because the ASME offers insanely cool internships and placement services afterwards. I would love to talk to him let him hear my name before I apply next year.
Hi. Bright and early!



Vieques could be a really lucrative resort area, in my opinion, if the U.S. would stop BOMBING it.



Monday, May 1, 2000

Oh, HAPPY MAY everyone!
I know I've said this before, but the "Martha, Martha, How does your garden grow?" commercials make me sick. And it's weird that she's plugging K-mart when her entire identity is so Westchester and Central Park West.
Ooooh. A big ER scene on Port Charles. Action! God, I wish I got other channels.
I just LOVE the Bill Clinton "Final Days" film he presented at his final Correspondent's Dinner. Great to see our president has a wicked sense of humor. My favorite pieces: running after Hillary's limo with her forgotten lunch and hanging out with the computer whiz from thos einsane commercials, you know, the guy who reminds me of the older brother in The Adventures Of Pete And Pete.



I had this really vivid dream last night. Ben Jenkins was stripteasing in my kitchen and doing things with an apple I've never... No, kidding. I was flipping channels, and miracle of miracles, the antenna grabbed me some NBC. So, I was watching it and it ended up being the Wimbledon finals. Agassi was playing in the men's final with the ladies to follow. So I'm thinking to myself, "I wonder if Monica made it!" and then Dick Enberg says, "Next up, the ladies final. Is it Miss Seles v Miss Davenport or Ms.?" because that's what they do at Wimbledon, throw a Miss in front of each woman's name. I was ecstatic! So psyched that Monica was in the finals I could hardly contain my joy. I woke up because of it, in fact. That is all.